Paranoia

My fear is losing you,
Not ever knowing your touch
Your smell
Your kindness
Your laughter
Your companionship

My fear is pushing you away,
I'm over enthusiastic,
I'm impatient
I'm jealous
Of all the time I cannot spent with you

My fear is waiting too long,
watching as your love life blossoms
As I'm waiting in the dark

My fear is being alone

You're more than I deserve, but I still want you for myself